just words

The whispers of the night are still in your words.
Hearing you from a distance is like seeing you in my heart.
Knowing your pain is brutal to my soul and forever flourishing in my beating chest.
Turning the time forward would be an illusion in itself never revealing it's forbidden secret.

Your lips quiver like the unforseen shadows of a willow tree.
What you speak is what you believe and what you believe is instilled in my every desire.
Your tears are worth more than a single diamond's reflections on the waters surface.

Dizzying Day

I have to say that I am pretty proud of myself, well for the most part. I started out with a goal set in mind and I did complete what I really, really needed to get done...though I could of stood to do a bit more.


I woke up this morning in RL and did a five mile run, which was needed because my body was getting to used to do doing the three mile runs and I needed to push myself a bit harder. I got home and took a shower, at my bit of breakfast and set myself up on the computer (normal habit).


Logged into SL and started my work and promised myself that I would keep my IMs at a low and I did very well, thank you. I finished both dresses for girls and was able to complete all the hats and am now ready to get those up on the panel boards. Here's a lil peek at one of the dresses I did.

What it is...

It's feeling like even if you land hard on the pavement, you'll still fall. It's comforting and scary all at the same time... I seek for his approval, crave for his proud words, and work for his acceptance. It's not a responsibility it's an honor to work at our relationship. I hand him a abundant amount of respect because of what he stands for as a human being. Accomplishing goals is an understatement it's in his blood to set and fullfill. My heart beats in a rhythmic pattern that is only for him to feel. The ones he loves, I love... those he respects, I do. And even if through everything in this life no matter the hardships the triumphs, I will never lose sight of him.

When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you
Haven’t made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I’ve known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong

I’d go hungry
I’d go black and blue
I’d go crawling
Down the avenue
No, there’s nothing
That I wouldn’t do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change
Are throwing wild and free
You ain’t seen nothing
Like me yet

I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn’t do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love

Make You Feel My Love Lyrics – Adele

Song Words by Artist / Band : Adele
Song Lyrics Title : Make You Feel My Love
Taken from Album : 19
Single Released : October 27, 2008
Music Genre : Pop
Writer : Bob Dylan

Heads Up.

I just want my closest friends and the ones that are slowly creeping into my heart to understand that having that spot in my life is an honor and I have high expectations of you. I know my worth.


P.S. On a lighter note... I cherish you.

Perfection can not be rushed.

So many things have been happening in the world of Nevy. Let's take an inside look.


I don't know about you but one thing I tend to slide into happily is new tasks. I like taking on everything in SL thinking that I have all the time in the world and it won't take me long to complete something. Nine out of ten times this is so not true. I find myself burried in a mound of work and somehow find the time that's needed to be there for my family and friends. What is up with that?


Lately, I've been feeling this extra surge of super sensitivity. I have no idea where it came from, it just crawled out of the depths of my soul...I suppose. Everything has been getting to me in some fashion. Things that normally wouldn't annoy me are just plain making me crazy. People don't usually get to me, but lately anything that's said to me is taken to heart. Ugh! My poor daughter, Keirsten, has this fixed thought that I'm upset with her in some way. I feel so horrible for making her think this, when it's absolutely not true. I figured it out... you see she has been our daughter for six months now and I am so completely comfy with her now that when my mood flops, I don't mind sharing that openly with her even if it means just not being myself around her. She's gone for the week her best friend went to CA to see her and visit. I can't wait until she returns to SL, I miss her terribly and we need mommy/daughter time.

The store is driving me nuts. I think it's just cause we are trying to get everything in it's place and settled. The sim we are on has a lot of great stores but it's not where I want to be. It doesn't "fit" us and it's a tad too small for what we are going for. My husband is building a store for us which is turning out wonderfully. He's come to realize he enjoys building. : ) I need to work on getting some more clothing created and finished. I hate those hours when I feel so utterly lazy. Ew. >.<>
I had class yesterday and it started out wonderfully and then things went down hill. I think it was one of those days where everyone may have been a little "off", I know I was. I had kids talking about sperm and how babies are made from beer and pizza, I had kids spitting out curse words like a sailor, and some that made me feel like they just didn't care. My first thought was, "If this was RL I could handle this situation with ease..." I felt like things had lost control. I don't know what I expect or what I was expecting. I mean every avie has a grown adult behind them deciding how they want to RP their character. I can't control that nor do I want to. I realized what got to me towards the end of class. It was knowing that I work so hard to do this for them. I don't get paid for it, I don't have to do it... I put a lot of time into what I am doing for them to make it feel like a real classroom, the organization, the consistency, being stable, fun, and an open opportunity for RPing specifically. I began to cry, but it wasn't because of one person in particular or anything that was done to me purposefully. It was a pile of things from SL and RL mixed and it just got to me at that moment. I do apologize to my students for having to end class a little earlier and not being able to control the tears. This isn't drama it's just life, whatever realm.

Needless to say I just needed time alone with my husband, his TLC always mends my torn heart or teary soul. His touch and words are healing.

Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket...

So the title really has nothing to do with what I'm going to blog about but it was just in my head and I like that song so...if you don't know it, know it! :P

Yesterday was a weird sort of day for me a lot of ups and downs going on throughout. The end of the days events left me in wonder and I'd like to share them.

Everyone sees SL (Second Life) as their own sort of outlet. Whether it's a game, virtual world, chat room, real, etc. SL is a way for most people to escape in some sense. The question is where do we draw the line? I realize that it's such a broad question, but I mean in every aspect of what's being asked. Last night my godbaby's mother decided that it would be okay to tell her that she "f-ed" up. Now mind you, though we all know that there is an adult behind the child avie (at least there should be) saying something like that to anyone is rude and hateful. Would you tell that to your own child? No...I hope not anyway, but we won't get into that. Though there is really not true comparison between your SL child and your RL child, the point is that there is still a person with feelings sitting there. Where do your morals lie? Is it that you have no respectful standings with others but mainly for yourself? We all have our moments but there is a more decent approach to getting your point across. Tell me what you think.

Trains and Strangers.

I took my lil man (Joshy Riverstone) to the train station today. We bought a ticket for about 10Ls and it expires after 24hrs. He and I hopped on the blue and yellow train first being that it was the one that was boarding at the time. At first I found myself outside of it as I was trying to sit but I realized my AO had it's share in the fun. Joshy just laughed.

As we were riding through he and I saw a lot of the scenery. It included trees, fields, lots of electric poles and such. He was amazed and having fun and I was just enjoying the time with him. He loves trains and this picture was taken at one of the best train stations I've seen yet in SL. Like my lil man said, "It's as if we landed on a person's hobby trains set..." Or something along those lines. *chuckles* We took a second ride on the train again. This time he rode in the caboose and I chose to somehow drive the train. Joshy said, "I should drive it like I stole it and he'll ride it like my accomplice."

After making our last stop at the train station he and I took a break on on the benches just to the side of the boarding entry to the trains. We sat there and just relaxed and before we knew it someone had approached us wanting to sit next to Joshy. He of course became wide-eyed and bushy tailed, clinging to me for dear life. I think she may of scared him just a tad...it could of been the fact that she was bald, had huuuge feet, or just that her stomach was really big. Joshy is convinced she was having twin babies.

The time we spent together ended shortly but it was a great day.